When I started writing a blog three weeks ago, I did it for my sanity.
Not that I was afraid I was one foot in the door at the local psych ward. Trust me, I have been there before and I know what that feels like.
I also know that I am no where near that point, and that I will never be there again. I have never been happier or more content in my life than I was at the start of the year.
But something was missing and I knew I needed and wanted more.
What I was looking for was an opportunity for me to do something that I enjoy doing and that didn't cost anything as far as time and money goes. It is not often that my life allows me a positive outlet to let loose a bit and let it all hang out.
Writing has and will always do that for me.
What I have found by writing the prior 17 posts is exactly what I hoped to find: a place that I could say anything with out the fear of being judged for what I was thinking or for whatever may be going on in my daily life as a father or as a teacher.
Where else could I tell someone about my foul-mouthed daughter, my zipper being unzipped in front of a crowd of high school kids, or pour out my feelings for a grandmother that has given me so much in my life? Before now, there was no place.
In my first post, I wrote what I hoped to gain from starting a blog and that I expected to do it with little or no audience. I honestly didn't think or cared if anyone would be reading my stuff.
So, when I have written my posts and have come back three or four hours later to find the number of comments and the things that have been said to me, it has been overwhelming. I can't tell you how much it has meant to me and I can't thank you enough.
It is funny that the people that I know the most, and who deal with me on a daily basis, don't really know me. And the people who have read what I have wrote, but wouldn't be able to pick me out of a crowd of people, probably know me the most.
So, thank you so much for reading. Whether or not you come back and read again... I'll keep writing. But, it would be cool if you did come back.
Turning a Light on Loneliness
1 week ago